"Finding" God's will

So I know, it has definitely been quite a while since my last blog. I have to admit, God has been doing some serious work in my life. I am one of those people that is constantly focused on the future. You see, I know we are supposed to live in the present, but I have always had this nagging fear that I would miss the bus to my future. Somehow, if I made one wrong decision, I would miss God's will for my life. I guess I convinced myself that God's will was one giant mystery, written in invisible ink. If I didn't do the exact right thing I would miss the message all together. Fortunately, I have realized my understanding could not be more incorrect.

John 10:10 says, "The thief comes only to steal kill and destroy, but I have come to give you life that you may have it to the fullest." God wants to give us an abundant life - not rob us of joy while we constantly search for God's plan. Now please do not misunderstand me, searching and discerning God's will is of utmost importance, but we must live that will now.

I constantly find myself thinking, "one day - one day I will fulfill my dreams, one day I will arrive at my calling." What I miss out on is the very real fact that I am fulfilling God's call on my life right now. As long as we are seeking God's face, and glorifying God in our actions, we cannot miss the bus. We will always be in the center of God's will if we set God as our focus. It is so easy to miss out on life because we are focused on the future. The truth is, we will never "arrive" or "fulfill" our calling. That is what every day is for. Daily we add one more piece to the puzzle of our lives, so in five - ten - twenty years we look back and see the glorious masterpiece God created all along.

God's ultimate plan is to give us a full life. That does not mean it will be easy, but man is it worth it! God has filled each of us with passions and desires, all we have to do is respond. So, I guess this is my response. I would much rather live every day walking in the glory of God than fretting over what I should do a year from now. What about you? Are you embracing the fullness of life God has planned for you? God's plan is not in invisible ink, it is plainly written in our innermost desires - the longings of our heart. Our response is what matters, and as long as we fearfully and constantly seek God's face, we can never miss that divine plan.

Misguided focus

The story of Saul always takes me by surprise. In the beginning, he is specifically called by God- and his response was to hide fearfully in the baggage. As he grows into the leadership position, he meets his demise in disobedience to God's orders. In 1 Samuel 15 we find God instructing Saul to go fight the Amalekites and to thoroughly destroy everything that belongs to them. As usually, God delivers the Israelites from the hands of their enemies. Everything seems to go according to plans except for one small aspect - Saul decided to not destroy everything. He spared the like of the Amalekite king, Agag, and kept the best of the livestock. As Samuel confronted Saul, rather than admitting his wrongdoing he lied. In verse thirteen he defends himself by asserting, "I have carried out the Lord's instructions." Samuel, being a prophet of God, clearly knew otherwise. Realising the grave mistake Saul pleads in verse 24, "I have sinned. I violated the Lord's command and your instructions.I was afraid of the people and so I gave in to them." Saul feared the people more than he feared God. Not only did Saul not fear God, but he thought the Lord would be okay with his sin since he intended on sacrificing the animals. He somehow thought that sacrifice could outweigh his blatant defiance. This anecdote ends with God mourning the fact that Saul ever even became king.

We see this story time and again in scripture. We read about the Israelites loss in the small town of Ai when they failed to seek God's guidance, and when Achan stole the coveted items which resulted in the death of both him and his family. This same theme rises up again and again. The sad thing is, we still refuse to learn this lesson today. It is a lesson I have to learn over and over again. How many times do we fear people more than we fear God? Often, we worry more about what people will think rather than what God will think. Saul looked around and saw a people that would oust him if he did not please them rather than a God who would deliver them if he obeyed.

Not only do we neglect fearing the Almighty, but we often trade in what is best for what we perceive as good. Saul rationalised his situation - maybe if I sacrifice the things I should have destroyed, God will be happy. He sought to please himself, his constituents, and God. In the end, he failed to do any of the above. As human beings we constantly trade in what is best in a desperate attempt to please ourselves, God, and those around us when in reality we do not even succeed at that. Our sole focus should be fulfilling the demands of our God and the rest will follow.

I cannot help but wonder - who do we fear more, God or people? Who do I fear more? To obey is better than sacrifice, but do I truly apply that to my life? Am I trading in God's perfect will for my life for something less than stellar? Saul neglected these aspects and lost his kingship to a young boy named David. I would hate to miss out because I had a misguided focus.

Lost in the baggage

Lately, as often happens, I have become my own worst enemy. The other day a devout Christian friend of mine uttered a statement that really opened my eyes. He simply said – Satan believes in you. I thought about it for a minute, they seemed like such harsh words to me. Then I realized that those few words are full of truth. If Satan did not believe in the things we could do through God, why would he need to attack us? Why would Satan be threatened if it were not true that we are more than conquerors through Christ? Therefore, it seems that often the biggest opponents to us are us.

We can see this time and again in the Bible We know the story of Moses who begged God to not choose him. In Exodus 3 we see Moses giving a desperate defense to God – but God you know I cannot speak, but God what if they do not believe me, but God I am just Moses. In 1Samuel 10 we find Saul hiding in the baggage because he is afraid to be king. Although Saul failed to follow the tenets of God, God chose him to be king and he desperately fought against the calling. Even in the New Testament we see the disciples run in fear, and Peter denied Jesus three times. We do not grasp the power of God in us and often hide in terror because we know the truth of ourselves; we know our humanity and failings. We forget that it is not our efforts, but Gods. So I have been wondering, what is it we are supposed to do? We are not all called to be pastors, missionaries, evangelists or worship leaders. But we are all called to glorify God in every aspect of our lives.

In Matthew 25 we find the parable of the talents. In this story, a master gives his servants different amounts of money. Two servants invest and double the return while one hides the talents in fear of losing them. Upon return, the master scolds the third and praises the first two. The latter servant receives nothing and the master took his single talent and gave it to those that invested. In Matthew 25: 29-30 we read, “For everyone who has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him. And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.” I just wonder, what has God given you? We do not all have money, but we do have gifts.

Luke 12:48b says, “For everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be required.” Where are you in this parable? Are you investing God’s gifts, taking a stand to make a difference with what you have been given? Are you Moses or Saul, running scared from the call God has on your life? Maybe you are burying your talents in the sand. God has a call on all of our lives. It can be big and small, but it will make an impact. Rather it be crafts, singing, writing, or just listening we cannot hide in the baggage and let someone else stand up. We have all been entrusted with something – your response is demanded.

Are we Jesus Freaks?

In the book Jesus Freaks, there is a humble story of a Russian Captain in Romania during the 1940's. This narrative reads:

"Christianity has become dramatic with us," wrote Pastor Richard Wurmbrand, a leader of the underground church in Communist Romania. "When Christians in free countries win a soul for Christ, the new believer may become a member of a quietly living church. But when those in captive nations win someone, we know that he may have to go to prison and that his children may become orphans. The joy of having brought someone to Christ is always mixed with this feeling that there is a price that must be paid.

"When I was still living behind the Iron Curtain, I had met a Russian captain. He loved God, he longed after God, but he had never seen a Bible. He had never attended religious services. He had no religious education, but he loved God without the slightest knowledge of Him.

I read to him the Sermon on the Mount and the parables of Jesus. After hearing them, he danced around the room in rapturous joy, proclaiming, 'What a wonderful beauty! How could I love without knowing this Christ?' It was the first time that I saw someone jubilating in Christ.

Then I made a mistake. I read to him the passion and crucifixion of Christ, without having prepared him for this. He had not expected it. When he heard how Christ was beaten, how He was crucified, and that in the end He died, he fell in an armchair and began to weep bitterly. He had believed in a Savior and now his Savior was dead!

I looked at him and was ashamed that I had called myself a Christian and a pastor, a teacher of others. I had never shared the sufferings of Christ as this Russian officer now shared them. Looking at him was, for me, like seeing Mary Magdalene weeping at the foot of the cross or at the empty tomb.

Then I read to him the story of the resurrection. When he heard this wonderful news, that the Savior arose form the tomb, he slapped his knees, and shouted for joy: 'He is alive! He is alive!' Again he danced around the room, overwhelmed with happiness!"

As I read this story, I cannot help but remember a day as I was working at Family Christian. As I stacked the new books, I noticed a little boy slumped and crying under a picture that portrayed Jesus on the cross. Although I passed this painting daily, it never moved me in this way. As I lingered, I heard the boy sobbing and telling his mom "look Jesus has a boo boo."

I just wonder - are we numb to that? Why don't we dance with joy upon the hearing of the resurrection, or mourn upon the truth of the crucifixion? Do we wear crosses as mere jewelry, hang nice photos of Jesus, and never really get it? Are we missing the point? The truth is that Jesus is real - and therefore the crucifixion and resurrection are just as real. During this Lenten season we are called to reflect on our sins, and as we do that how can we keep from leaping with joy over the promise of grace offered through the cross? It is easy to grow numb - to read the words for a thousandth time, once again partaking in the Eucharist and forget that our Savior did die for sinners such as us, only to rise again creating the beautiful story that brings salvation to such wretched sinners like me.

Prozac Jesus

As of late I have had an undying infatuation with Philip Yancey. Due to this passion, I have been reading his book The Jesus I Never Knew. In one of the chapters, he aptly states that the American church has successfully created a “Prozac Jesus.” A Jesus that is always calm and level headed – a Jesus that spoke in a monotone voice to a group of tame followers. The problem is, it takes a great deal of deception to create this form of Messiah because the Jesus we view in the New Testament looks nothing like long haired, white, relatively handsome, Prozac Jesus. In reality we see a Jesus that was probably dark skinned, poor, and anything but tame. A Jesus that turned tables and told a man not to bury his dead father because the dead can take care of themselves. He tells a potential follower to sell everything he owned, and had the gull to tell his disciples to stop fishing which was their only form of income.

Now let's align this Biblical representation to that of the present day church. First, we would never turn away a potential follower. Rather than tell them to sell everything, we would probably step on stones in a desperate attempt to not offend them. If a pastor called people to leave their jobs to follow Jesus, it just might result in the pastors termination. We have taken the truth of scriptures and formed an “American Christianity.” A belief system that is safe – it allows us to be Christians yet enjoy the American dream as well. More than anything, it allows us to play it safe.

One year I went with my church choir on a mission trip to Florida. While on the mission trip, many kids suffered from dehydration and a few had to be hospitalized. In a desperate attempt to combat this, my youth pastor created what we aptly named “waterade.” Since they didn’t have the money to buy us each water and Gatorade, they unevenly mixed both to create an awful concoction of half water – half Gatorade. Needless to say, it was terrible. In many senses, this is what we do to the gospel. We mix what we enjoy about the world with what is easy of the scriptures to create a mix that is good for nothing. We have strayed away from the true Christ – the Messiah that loved unconditionally in such a way that he was able to reveal sin while instigating change.

In Revelation 3:15-16 God chides the church of Laodicea by saying, “I know your works; you are neither cold nor hot. I wish that you were either cold or hot. So, because you are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I am about to spit you out of my mouth.” Often, we are content with being lukewarm. We fill a seat on Sunday and offer our mandatory ten percent but God demands so much more than that. John Wesley often talked about sanctifying grace. This is a grace that leads you toward holiness. Once we accept Christ, this should be our goal. As a church, we can never grow content or lukewarm. God wants all of us.

It is high time that we as the American church stop being lukewarm. It is imperative for us as Christian to delve into the truth of Christ, a Messiah that was anything but the “Prozac Jesus” we have so masterfully created. We have got to rise up and take a stand – to show the world Christ. God wants nothing to do with lukewarm, “waterade” faith. This is an all or nothing game. Now that is not to say that I am anywhere close to being there, but that should be our goal. If just five people decide to live out loud with an unadulterated passion and zeal for truth, imagine the difference that could make. God has called us to so much and given us so much more, how could we ever settle for “waterade?”

Give me a break!!

During college, I took a class on Christian leadership. One major section of the class was focused on the value of rest and relaxation. Little did I know how vital this was. Throughout the Bible we see evidence of this truth. God instructs the Israelites numerous times to keep the Sabbath day holy. Later, we see Jesus retreating to pray and rest for hours on end. While the theme threads throughout the Bible, I guess I really never internalized the importance...that is until now.

Lately I have been exhausted - I guess you could say burned out. We work with the youth and children at the church and it is thoroughly enjoyable yet overwhelmingly exhausting. Church does not fulfill my spiritual needs because I am focused on the youth - who is sitting by them-self - who seems to need some extra attention. While in my mind this seems easy I go home exhausted. I forget to rest.

I do not know about you, but resting does not come easily for me. I often get depressed because I feel like I am wasting my day away. If I do not fulfill the items on my to-do list, what is the point of the day? It is easy to forget how imperative rest is. How can we serve others and minister to those in need if we do not take care of ourselves? Can a doctor heal the sick if he himself is to sick to show up? We do others a great injustice when we neglect our own well being.

It sounds so easy, and for me it is far from that. We have to make rest and relaxation a priority - it is high time we begin to heed God's commandment to keep the Sabbath holy. For me, my Sabbath is not Sunday. Sundays for me are filled with hyped up kids, obligations, and stress. Definitely anything but rest. For me, I take my Saturdays as a day for me. No cleaning - or to do lists. I do what brings me relaxation - rather that be a picnic, walk, or just some much needed alone time. Not only do we deserve this time, but we are better prepared to be the parent, sibling, spouse, or friend we need to be when we are rested.

I know you and everybody else are overworked, overstressed, and busy all the time. How could we possibly take an entire day to set our to - do lists aside? I often think the same thing, but the work I do when I am burned out is not worth a cent. It is only when I am rested that I can be productive. For our own good, for the good of others, and just to simply obey God's commands we have got to keep the Sabbath holy because every once in a while we need a little break!

Divine connection

It seems that as Christians we often separate the Old and New Testament. We look at the Bible and see the "vengeful" God of the Old Testament who seems to stand in stark contrast with the "grace" offered by God in the New Testament. The more I study the Old Testament, I discover that this could not be any farther from the truth.Throughout the Old Testament we encounter a God that yearns for relationship with humans - the Bible serves to portray the development of that very journey. For example, God establishes covenants with His people, delivers them, and provides for them. God creates laws and guidelines to keep that relationship pure - all the while establishing the beautiful relationship between God and mankind. We find an amazing example of this in Exodus.

Exodus 40:34 - 38 reads :
"Then the cloud covered the Tent of Meeting, and the glory of the Lord filled the tabernacle. Moses could not enter the Tent of Meeting because the cloud had settled upon it, and the glory of the Lord filled the tabernacle. In all the travels of the Israelites, whenever the cloud lifted from above the tabernacle, they would set out; but if the cloud did not lift, they did not set out - until the day it lifted. So the cloud of the Lord was over the tabernacle by day, and fire was in the cloud by night, in the sight of all the house of Israel during all their travels."

To take hold of the wealth of these scriptures I am going to deviate away from this Exodus passage to the story of the transfiguration. In Mark 9:7 we find that while Jesus, Peter, James and John, encounter Moses and Elijah on the mountain "a cloud appeared and enveloped them, and a voice came from the cloud: 'this is my Son , whom I love. Listen to him!'" So up until this point the primary way God led the Israelites was through a cloud by day and fire at night. Approximately thirteen hundred years later God shows that the law and prophets are fulfilled through Jesus which is shown by the presence of a cloud.

Now let's go a little farther to Acts 2 and Pentecost. Up until this point in scripture, God is an outward force leading mankind through symbols and prophets. This one chapter in Acts changes the entire relationship between God and mankind for eternity. We read in Acts 2:3-4 that "They saw what seemed to be tongues of fire that separated and came to rest on each of them. All of them were filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues as the Spirit enabled them."
Now, God descends with fire and rather than leading people from afar, dwells inside them. The Trinity is fulfilled - God shown in the cloud, the Christ who is revealed at the Transfiguration, and the Holy Spirit who descended like fire and now dwells within us. How awesome is that! What seemed like a mere Old and New Testament fit together like a perfect puzzle and reveal this long journey of a God that simply longs for relationship and devotion.

So what does this mean for us? As humans, God desires relationship but sin severs that union. As we know, "All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." (Romans 3:23) As with every relationship, we have to hold up our end of the bargain. For the Israelites, they had to keep an exhaustive list of rules and follow the pillar of God. For us, we still have to keep our temple holy. So I wonder, what are we doing to enhance or detract from that relationship? Are we investing in that relationship or just benefiting from it? We serve an awesome God, a Jehovah that relentlessly pursues us. We just have to give ourselves and devote ourselves to the God that now dwells within us.

focus focus focus

So here is the deal - Jason finally recorded and uploaded his songs. Now in my opinion, he has an impeccable ability to write songs that are simple yet profoundly deep. I know I know - I am probably bias, but listening to them has given me an overflow of thoughts. One song in particular really speaks to my heart. The song is entitled Everything But You and focuses on the story of Peter walking on water.

We can find the story of Jesus walking on water in Matthew 14, Mark 6, and John 6, but it is imperative to note that the anecdote of Peter is only mentioned in Matthew 14. Leading up to this miraculous event, Jesus is simply trying to find a place of solitude. Being the famous Son of God, thousands followed him, culminating in the feeding of the five thousand. Still in search of rest, he sent the disciples away and withdrew himself to pray. Later that night, he returns to his disciples while walking on water. Now I do not know about you, but if I saw a figure walking on water toward me I would fervently paddle the other direction. Apparently, the disciples felt the same way because fear paralyzed them as they yelled "it's a ghost!" By this point, I might just be forced to jump ship! To their surprise, Jesus declares, don't fear, it's me! Peter, apparently still unsure asks, "Lord if it is you tell me to come to you on the water." What an opportunity! As Jesus beckons him out onto the lake, Peter takes a great leap of faith. As he took a few steps on the water, he sees the wind. As his eyes shift from Jesus to the wind, fears seizes him and he begins to sink.

This part of the story is profoundly important. For the first few steps, Peter's gaze upon Jesus kept him afloat, yet one shift of focus and he began to drown. Can you sympathize with this? I know I can. Quite often things are going strong - we feel at the top of the game - and then we take our eyes of Christ. As our eyes shift we see the waves, the trees moving in the distance, the seashore that is almost out of sight. Maybe in our lives we have our focus on Christ and then we see that not everybody supports us, we are not the best, and we do not necessarily have the strength to press on. Whatever it may be, we rapidly begin to sink. Not because Jesus left us, but rather due to the fact that we left him.

Here comes the encouraging part. Peter cries out save me save me! I can only imagine the fear pumping in his veins, arms flailing as his fears materialize - all he can do is cry out to his Savior. Now Jesus has a few options. He could teach Peter a lesson, let him flail around for awhile and teach him not to loose focus. He could save him - only to chide him for being distracted. Luckily, Jesus chose a third option. He grabbed Peter saying "you of little faith, why do you doubt?" Jesus proceeded to return Peter to the boat.

For Peter, the boat was his comfort. This man made a living from fishing - he probably could not imagine life without the boat. That was his safe place. Yet he left his comfort zone to take a leap of faith - to walk on water. After loosing sight, Jesus returned him to safety. Is this not what God does in each of our lives? He beckons us out of our comfort zones all the while knowing that when we loose focus and drown, he will pick us up and put us back in the boat.

The difficulty lies in the fact that focus is not a one time decision, it is a daily choice to set our gaze upon Christ. It is the mindset of keeping our head in the game. So what is your "wind"? What is it that causes you to take your eyes off Christ? For me it is often doubt, like Moses I cry "but God I can't." What is that in your life? What is God beckoning you toward? Whatever it is, know that although we are fallible, God is not and just because we shift our gaze does not mean that God does.

Let's Get Salty

Some Sundays the children's sermon speaks more to me than anything else. You know what I mean - truth told in a child like manner that carries tremendous depth. Needless to say, that happens to me a lot. Since the Super Bowl is upon us, Jason chose to teach a children's sermon on commercials. We all know that is the best part of the game! His message centered upon the fact that we should be commercials for God. Like I said, simple yet convicting.

During the Sermon on the Mount Jesus declared, "You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt looses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men. You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden." (Matthew 5:13-14)

This sounds great until we realize that quite often this falls far short of being easy. Sometimes, I have no desire to be the salt or the light. Some days my "commercial of God" isn't selling much of anything. Hopefully someone can concur with me on that one! This conundrum led Jason to write a song which he entitled "Don't Wanna." I find the following verses particularly poignant:

Don't wanna be the light in this darkness tonight
wanna stay in the comfort of my home
than I remember you voice saying I am calling -
you are not your own

Don't wanna be the salt in this lost world today
just wanna do things my way
then I am reminded I am bought with a price
You willingly gave Your life.

Being salt and light is a choice. A conscious decision to be Christ, even when we do not feel like it. For many people, the only Jesus they will ever see is in us. Is what they see something different? A light on the hill that they cannot ignore? Imagine the potential if we choose to be just a little bit "saltier." For some reason beyond comprehension, God uses us as a vehicle for His truth. Although we often do not feel like it, we are called to be a walking commercial for God. A stellar example was John Wesley. He once declared, "I set myself on fire and people come to watch me burn." Are you on fire?

*To listen to Jason's song simply click the previous highlighted title or visit www.myspace.com/jasonowensband

The "perfect" church

As I was sitting through a church service the other day a lady excused herself - as she walked by I saw her unsuccessfully attempt to cover her tears. After a few minutes I met her and prayed for her. Full of embarrassment, she returned home. My heart sank. What has become of the church? We feel compelled to put on perfect clothes - every hair in place, display perfect singers complimented by just the right lighting followed by a perfect homily with every movement perfectly placed. As we file into the building our only fear is that people might just realize we are not as perfect as we portray. In reality, we are far from it. What has happened? How many times are people dying inside, too scared to remove their masks and display their wounds.

This is such a far cry from the church in Jesus day. While they had their own list of problems, they were like a magnet for broken people. The adulterer - leper - tax collector.

Casting Crowns sings a moving song titled "Does anybody hear her" in which they say:


Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?

I have to wonder, do we truly see the people that sit by us every Sunday? Do we attempt to listen and understand their struggles? How many are hiding their
tears - standing on the ledge ready to jump - just wondering if someone will notice.

So what do we do? Ghandi once instructed people to "be the change you wish to see in the world." But how do we do that? Honestly I do not have the answer. Part of the problem lies in human nature - it is embarrassing to display our flaws and often much easier to pretend we have it all together. There is a great risk in taking off the mask. There just has to be something we can do.What if we paid attention? Maybe if we truly listened when we asked how people are doing. What if we open our eyes to those hurting around us? Maybe, one person at a time, we can make a difference. Yet, to make this change we have to be authentic ourselves. We have to remove the mask - show that we do not have it all together. Through setting an example, we can show people the church is the one place to come as you are. Mask free - for everyone to see. Through our actions we can show that the church is a place for broken people to be loved and accepted because we have all been there and done that. Slowly, but surely, we can be that change.

The Problem with Love

I have to be honest with you - I often find it hard to love people. Now, in the "big" situations - like mission work - it is easy. I guess it is just on my mind, what I am supposed to do. The problem arises during the daily grind. The work day that never seems to end - that person that just puts you in a bad mood - that is when it is hard to love.

Upon accepting the Nobel Peace Prize Mother Teresa delivered a beautiful speech which she concluded by declaring, "If we could only remember that God loves us, and we have an opportunity to love others as he loves us, not in big things, but in small things with great love...." These words are laden with the truth of Christ. In Matthew five Jesus asserts that if we only love those who love us, or love when it is easy, what good is that? Even the tax collectors love in good times. We are called to something greater - a love that transcends circumstances.

It is often argued that the true measure of a person is how they act when no one is looking. Could it also be stated that the measure of a Christian is how they love? Not just in the big situations, but also in the small. The times when no one will know - even the person that finds joy in making your life miserable.

God beckons us to love with great love in small circumstances not because it is easy, but because God first loved us. Now I know myself and can therefore conclude that I am not the most love-able individual, just ask my husband! Yet for some reason, God still loves me unconditionally. How do I dare not love everyone I come in contact with? Maybe if we choose to love each person we encounter, our lives will declare the undeserved love God showers upon us. It is not easy, but I have a feeling it is more than worth it.

"Whoever does not love does not know God because God is love."
1 John 4:8

Disappointment with God

Have you ever been disappointed with God? I know I have. I can remember times when I yelled at God - wondering how such a loving and just God could possibly allow so much evil. I have definitely been disappointed with God. For this reason, and for general curiosity, I began reading the book Disappointment with God by Philip Yancey. Yancey is one of my favorite authors - probably top three if I had to rate him. He has an impeccable ability to mix knowledge and faith and draw you into the topic, and after you finish the last page you are profoundly impacted. For this reason, I guess you could say this is not really a blog but more a regurgitation of part of this book.

As Yancey wrote Disappointment with God, he visited with countless people who had been disappointed. He mentioned one individual who he aptly labeled the "Job" type. This man was righteous, and devout. Nonetheless, his life was full of devastation. His wife suffered a dreadful fight with cancer and he was hit by a car leaving him debilitated. He could not even do something as simple as read more than one page of a book at a time. As Philip met with Douglas, he asked how he viewed disappointment with God. After a few minutes of thinking, Douglas replied with these powerful words, "To tell you the truth, Philip, I didn't feel any disappointment with God." He said "I have learned to see beyond the physical reality in this world to the spiritual reality. We tend to think 'life should be fair because Gos is fair.' But God is not life." He proceeds to say "If we develop a relationship with God apart from our life circumstances then we may be able to hang on when the physical reality breaks down. We can learn to trust God despite all the unfairness of life."

Yancey brings the point home by asserting that life was even unfair to Jesus. Think about that for a moment. Although life is often unjust, God remains the same. As Philip Yancey stated, "God responded to the question of unfairness not with words, but with a visit, an Incarnation."

Since the fall, life has been unfair, cruel, and unjust. All the while, God mourns with us and remains the same. I know these words do not answer all the questions on disappointment, but they are worth listening to and digesting. We serve a great God - despite our circumstances. Maybe the next time we are disappointed with God, and I am sure there will be a next time, we can remember that God and life are not the same.

* Disappointment with God, Philip Yancey, pages 181-5

The Call of Abram

When we think of Abraham we often recall a great man of faith who did amazing things in the name of the Lord. He followed God in such a way, he was willing to sacrifice his flesh and blood to obey God's will. It was Abraham who received the blessing that he would have descendants that would be God's people. We could not have the Old Testament without Abraham - he was a great man of faith. With all of these heroic stories, it is easy to forget where Abraham came from.

In Genesis 12 we find the story of the call of Abram. This is before God changed his name to Abraham - before Sarah gave birth to Isaac. In verses 1 - 3 God instructs Abram to leave his family, everything he has ever known, to set out into the wilderness to find the land of God's blessing. Now let's process this for a moment - we are still in Genesis so there are not too many people populating the earth, and it is not like Abraham can go to the local McDonalds and pick up a job if these plans did not work out. God was calling him to leave everything he knew, take his wife and possessions along with Lot and head out. He did not even know where he was heading too! God simply said, "Go from your country and your kindred and your father's house to the land that I will show you." (Gen. 12:1) Now, the micromanager in me would rise up in protest to this - I could not help but ask where God? Why God? When? I mean, he did not even have the ability to write home! God simply said go - and I will show you. I will bless you through your descendants. He did not even have any kids, and as we know Sarah was barren.

As the story unfolds, we see God promise him land and change his name to Abraham. Although he knows the land he is promised, Abraham never sees his blessing come to fruition. It takes decades for the Israelites to go through slavery, through the desert, and then fight countless battles to earn their promised land. Once we break this story down, it is not as glorious as we portray it to be. God's initial blessing in chapter twelve takes the entire Old Testament to unfold.

As I walk through my life, I often get impatient and ask why God? Where God? When? In reality, our entire life is the unfolding of God's will. Like the Israelites, we must work to reach our promised land. We often look at the Old Testament and see God working great things through unworthy vessels, but what we forget is the process. I can imagine the Israelites wandering in the desert thinking really? Where is this so called promised land? Through their wandering God was shaping them - molding them - so they would be prepared once they received their ultimate blessing. If we never suffer through the desert, we can not find the true beauty in the land of milk and honey that lies before us.

The great I AM

Last Sunday we were talking to our youth about how great our God is. As Jason taught, I realized that it is easy to forget what an awesome God we serve. Not only do we serve a God who hung the stars in the sky - but a God who knows the number of hairs on our head. A God who placed earth on the perfect axis - one degree off and we would burn or freeze. The minute intricacies of our body speaks to the nature of our God.

The awe only grows as we see the numerous prophecies fulfilled in the Bible. What an awesome God we serve! A God who is I Am the Alpha and Omega - an omnipotent God that chooses to call us friends.

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What a mighty God we serve.

This same magnificent God yearns to do awesome things in our lives. We just have to turn ourselves over - lay our lives down so God can shape us and mold us in a way that only a loving, omniscient, powerful Lord can.

An unfamiliar apostle

I am enthralled with the story of Stephen. His story is told in Acts 6-7 and he is often thought to be the first Christian martyr. At this time in church history, the disciples faced a problem. You see, some widows were unintentionally being neglected. Due to the growing need, the disciples decided to find seven helpers that were “full of the Holy Spirit and wisdom.” (Acts 6:3) Among the seven chosen was this humble servant names Stephen. With this added assistance, the word of God spread throughout the nation. As the disciples grew in number, the fury of their enemies only escalated. It seemed this small group of Christ lovers did not disband as they expected.

In chapter six verse eight Luke writes that Stephen was “full of faith and power.” Not only that, but he performed marvelous wonders. There is no doubt that this man was after God’s own heart. So much so, that he made some people mad. Usually that happens when we are in the middle of God’s will. Some dissidents from the Synagogue of the Freedmen spoke voraciously against Stephen, but “they were not able to resist the wisdom and the Spirit by which he spoke.” (6:10) As his enemies stirred up false testimonies and spread the word against God’s servant, Stephen found himself facing his foes. As this man addressed his opponents his face began to glow like an angel. Can you imagine? How can you argue with someone that is glowing? Stephen then begins his holy tirade – I guess we can say he was righteously indignant. He throws scripture in their face – calling them a stiff necked people. As he retorted the Old Testament truths the malevolent crowd plugged their ears and charged at him. Saul collected their coats as they stoned this prophet to death.

What a story! There are so many truths that are intertwined in this narrative. Stephen displayed what it truly means to be a follower of Christ. He was so entrenched in God’s word there was no denying that he was different. Just one look at his face and people saw that Christ spilled from his pores. As I tell my youth, he oozed Jesus. He opened his mouth and God came out – in such a way that his enemies could not help but plug their ears! The Holy Spirit filled him until he glowed. What an example. I can only imagine that every time Stephen met with someone, they could not help but encounter a living God. He oozed Jesus – he was so filled to the brim that he could not help but spill Jesus out of his mouth – out of his pores – out of his face – until death dealt its final blow.
I cannot help but wonder, is that true about me? Is that true about the church today? Is that true about you? Are we so engrossed in God that we exude Christ? Can people see Christ in us without even getting to know us? I want to ooze Jesus. Now please do not misunderstand me – I have no desire to be a holier than though, nose in the air Christian. I want the true Jesus. The Jesus that loved everyone – that brought about change without demonizing. The Jesus that loved his neighbors even more than himself. I want people to see that in me – and in the church. I know this will make people uneasy – the truth always causes the enemy to rise up against us – but what a great change we could bring! You see I think this is what Christ wants for us. He wants a relationship with us in which we are so entrenched in the word that we cannot help but exude the love of Christ. Maybe, someday, our face will even glow.